funny little world

im gone , youre still there.Wednesday, November 25, 2009 / 8:36 PM

OH GODDD I MISS SAFIAHH . LIKE SERIOUSLY .

oh my , where has she gone to ? Have been days since i last saw her. I am so depressed. I miss her like tarts. If i don't meet her today , i cant meet her anymore as i will be working and working until next Thursday which i don't even know if i can meet her because i got this chingay thing to attend . How did my life become so tragic ? Tell me please .

Oh well , i was suppose to accompany Safiah to go to Saidah's school to collect her PSLE report slip but there's no sign of Safiah . So I'm free , sadly tho. I can sleep all day if i want , i can go and have Value Lunch at Admiralty , I can meet up Airina / Furaa to go for lunch or I can even meet up with my very long long long lost friend Aida or i can even do my wardrobe , or or I can just spend my time lying around 832. loll and mhhhh .

So many things I can do , so little time . I'm working tomorrow , and I'm excited. Okay , my mine is made up . Im going to go out with Airina . Hehhhh , got to get ready now . love love . Bye .

disgusted like reallyMonday, November 23, 2009 / 2:47 AM

Urgh . I just need to change the blogskin dont i ? haha . This will be temporary because i dont really like it cause its too plain . Agreed ? Hahahah .

So . After working , i went home straight as i dont really have the energy to go anywhere else . And i just know that Rebecca will be working with me soon.

New crews = Lesser work

Haha . Not really lah actually kan ? But my scheldule manager asked me to work on Friday , and i should because theres not enough crew and most auntys are on off on fridays . So , its really a chance for me to get double pay . Not about the money tho , chey . Hahahah . Alright then , love you all . Bye !

youre avoiding me like some kind of trash .

Action - Reaction .Saturday, November 21, 2009 / 4:41 AM

Just stop smoking people. Stop now , before its too late. This goes out to my sister , brother(s) , workmates and best friends too. In fact , this goes out to all of you teenagers who think smoking is part of their life . The fact is , its gonna get you nowhere.

MARK MY WORDS ; N O W H E R E . 

retarded faceWednesday, November 18, 2009 / 10:34 PM

Things that are happening .

- Just got my pay .
- Just did my ATM card therefore , today i become a women. LOL .
- Taking , 3/1 subjects.
: Science Phy/Chem
: English
: Malay
: A maths
: E maths
: POA
: History
: Social Studies
- Did my nails.
- Going to town later on .
- Getting so much more comfortable with my work days :0 !

Loveyou all , bye .

Thursday, November 12, 2009 / 4:30 PM

URGH , GERAM LAH GERAM GERAM GERAAAAAMM ! YOU CAN JUST SAY YOU NEED ME AT WORK RIGHT ? NO NEED TO GO AND TELL ME TODAY I START AT 7 . PADEHAL I CHECKED MY SCHEDULE TWO TIMES LAHH ! SUDDENLY MY NAME APPEAR.

now , i have to force myself to go to work today . While i planned a lot a lot of things to do with myself. Urgh . Macam kurang ajar or what siah . Need to be there by 10 , and then god knows what time im going to end . Maybe 6 probably . Ahhhhhhhh ! And tomorrow i start at 7. :'( , sedih sedih sedih .

i told my brothers and sisters who are going to school now and they also feel so angry . See , got back ups. My brother told me this , if your manager calls and ask you to go to work when you know you didnt have to you say this ;

manager : do you know you have work today ?
crew : DO YOU KNOW IM ASLEEP !

yaah , thats one way to get fired. and today is a friday , nampak sangat down crew . And if they asked me to come to work they would have to pay double pay so that is why they say i have work. Nevermind . SABAR SABAR .

okay on a brighter - tapi tak bright sangat lah - note ,

yes , they are together . And finally i can see a big smile on her face after a lot of months of sad face . I hope you both will last so much longer than the last time , ha ha ha :) ! Love you all , bye .

life right now , money is important .Wednesday, November 11, 2009 / 4:43 PM

Long working days , short hours of sleeping , no social life , tiredness are not taken into consideration , standing for 8 hours straight , extended working hours without notice , wake up as early as 7 for the day , cramps all over , menses cramps are not a possible sickness , faces goes pale , screaming and shouting everywhere , down here , down there , stock up every five minutes , cleaning things that you're not suppose to and what do i do all this for ? Money .

Sounds cheap , sounds very cheap. But i lost $15 and now i cant do anything. Cant use my ezlink card , cant buy my own necessities , cant enjoy any outside life for awhile . Hopefully , my pay have came to welcome me back to the social world. At least . Or not , ill be a bankrupt until the 20th .

I may make the term working sounds very fuckish . But its not , really . Yes , it may be tiring . The managers may not understand what situation youre in but when it comes to having fun with the crews . It all pays off. From this stage , i know that when im all alone , i feel tired. Thats why , we have crewmates. Even auntys are fun to talk to . Despite having such little time to spend time with the outside world , my crewmates make me feel so homely . Eventhough i have only been working for two weeks.

You may feel like quiting , but after seeing the crews caring for the state you are in. You are all better :) .

p/s , im not saying all my crewmates are awesome . some of them are plain lazy bumbs. bombom tak nak naik punya case.

Sembwg ParkSaturday, November 7, 2009 / 3:04 PM

Darlene,
You are even less focused today than yesterday. You are all over the map, swinging from one end of the mood spectrum to the other. Dreaming about your social plans won't get you where you want to go, but you are not sure which of two equally good opportunities to follow.

facebook isnt kidding , really . Wow , its 7 and i just reached home from a very enthu day at Sembawang Park with them people . I shouldnt have stayed , i should have went back home and rest because i have work at 9. Sleeping for only 2hours is not enough to cover my 7.5hrs of work today .

Having second thoughts on going to work today , im just so tired and dragged. Lets see how it goes later on . If im going to feel tired or awake , my mood swings . Mhh , now i feel so giddy . My head feels so heavy . Urgh , i want to go to work but im too tired. Okay , going to get some rest now . Urgh , bye .

my first time doing it , it was a very very very very bad experience.
I hate my 3rd bestf aka the devil that made me do that. HA - HA !

ab.Friday, November 6, 2009 / 2:48 AM

This was the very first song i ever performed :) , but that time i really didnt know the meaning of this song . Not ever , until now . Woww , its so meaningfull that urgggghhh . It just makes me miss you. I miss the times you keep bugging me with your weird hellos. And the times you kept asking eventhough i said ill never tell . Well , its gone now huh ? I miss calling you my _ _ . Time flies , people change . Things change . I understand okay , im not blaming you . Its me . Dont take it the wrong way , i miss you not i love you . Lovelove bye .

Its nice to know that you were there , thanks for acting like you
cared . And making me feel like i was the only one . He was everything ,
everything that i wanted . All the memories so close to me just fade away .

breaking downWednesday, November 4, 2009 / 6:52 PM

i have no proper photos of us , but this works as i can still see your face . At least .

My love for you will never ever fade . Ill cry for you , ill waste as much tears as I can for you, ill do anything to have you back . I want to hug you tight , i want to love you with all the wonderful strength you've given . I miss the times you just held on to me , constantly tapping me on my thighs putting me to sleep. I miss you being so nice to the neighbors , to the birds that you'll always feed. I was so small , but i ran away from home and went to you. I vividly remembered tears rolling down my face while you asked who sent me there. I was there when you were on the verge of getting that sickness. I saw you suffer , i really did .

You were so strong , but i thought you were stronger .

I did not want to believe that you were gone , i didn't want to look at your face . I kept telling myself , this was all a joke to make me cry . I dream about you that day , and i wanted to hug you so tight . But i never reached you . I know that you will give me the support i really need right now , i just know it . But that is never going to happen , not anymore .

im breaking down so hard , because i love you . and you loved me .

class bbq !Sunday, November 1, 2009 / 1:27 AM

class BBQ was off the hook . Aha , never said that one before. Well , have to thank Chia for the rides :D , w/o your rides maybe ill die halfway . Hahahah , it is a very memorable experience considering we are going to separate next year :( , sadd story .

Playing truth and dare beside the sea in the middle of the night was very nice , its a very great experience and it kills me to leave that place. Eventho it started to pour at the start of the event , we still managed to enjoy ourselves. The sad thing is that there isnt alot of photos , i decided to take out my phone only at the end of the whole thing . BAHHH , and i did not bring any camera . All photos uploaded on fb and multiply , nurdarlene.multiply.com :D ! Have a nice day , love you all. Bye !